Do you ever find yourself in a funk? Like your life is quickly passing you by and then one day you stop and think, “How did I get here? I feel like I’m stuck!”? The past couple of weeks have kind of been like that for me. I thought that maybe if I share a little about what I have been feeling, not only might I feel better, but maybe someone else out there can relate and not feel like they are the only other person who goes through crap like this.
So, first of all, you might have noticed that I haven’t posted in a few weeks. While I feel like getting out of a weekly rhythm may cause people to forget this blog even exists, I really have not been in a position to write about anything and be genuine. That would go against what I want for this blog, and make me feel like a fake. That’s just not going to happen, folks.
Second, I have been in a transition at work, starting in a new department, and that in itself has been an adjustment. Having to learn a new job can certainly take a toll on someone’s brain. I love what I do, and I also love to learn, so this isn’t a bad change for me. I’ve just been busy, like getting handed a project by my supervisor to complete before Christmas break when I wasn’t completely confident in my abilities of being able to complete it in a week type of busy. I did though, by the way, and I even completed it early. I love when I surprise myself like that!
Thirdly, there have been some deeper and more personal things going on that I wasn’t quite sure how to deal with. Does that ever happen to you? Just out of the blue the lemons handed to you aren’t the good ones you can eat with salt, (judge me,) but the moldy brownish ones you can’t even use to freshen your garbage disposal with? Yuck! I am still not completely worked through this situation, but thankfully I have a supportive husband, and a few solid women I can vent to who aren’t afraid to give me some words of wisdom.
Lastly, I have been a little off track, with my health, and with my physical activity. I have had moments when I chose a lazier path with what to eat for dinner, and how to spend any spare time when I could have gone for a walk or something. As a result, my skin is a bit patchy, and my clothes don’t fit as comfortably. And I just feel like crap, to be quite honest. Thank the Lord that this is my favorite time of year, or I’m not sure if I would have realized how much this funk has been affecting me.
So what is one to do when they feel like they have let themselves and their life go? I think the first thing is to talk about it with people you trust who care about you, and be completely honest with them. I believe with all of my heart that lying will get you nowhere good, and I know from experience, dude. Especially lying to yourself, not cool. What comes next will depend on what kind of person you are. Men and women tend to deal with things a little bit differently, actually, a lot differently. In my case, after I talk about it and hear other’s perspectives, I look at things I have gotten off the paths from, and ask myself what made me get on them in the first place. For example, why did I start eating real food to begin with? I am a reflective type of person, so I will also think about what event’s may have led to my funkiness, and ask myself if any of those issues still need to be addressed. What I am not, is a self-motivator. I thrive off of motivating others actually, and prefer to have the same done to me. I just need to be careful who I look to for motivation. It is easy to come across another “wallower”, and get stuck even further into funkiness. Another thing I can do is write about it. Write in my prayer journal, or write in my blog. Either way, I welcome feedback, and usually learn something new as well.
I think an important thing to remember if you ever get into a funk is that you are not alone, and you can always get past it. It may not seem like it at the time, but it’s true. As I write this, I am already able to look at a few things that I could do to get my bo-hiney back on the right path. It makes me feel amazing to know that I have you all out there supporting me as well. Thank you!!